Sunday, January 5, 2014

Letter to my Daughter: December 30, 2013

My sweetest Anya,

Today is a cruel day. Today, we say goodbye one more time, as we prepare to bury you. The world really isn’t as it should be. Today, me and your mom should be exhausted from being up at all hours to feed you. We should be celebrating your (almost) two weeks of life.

In a few short months, we should celebrate your eating your first solid foods. There are many celebrations we will not get to have. Your first steps, your first words. The first time you make a drawing that we stick on the fridge.  Your first visit to the library. Our first vacation together. Your first day of school.  I could go on.

I can’t express how sorry I am about the future you will not get to live – that we should live together.

You have left a big hole in our hearts. Wherever you are, I want you to know that you are loved. By so many people. I want you to know that today, I am who I am – a dad – because of you. The impact you had on my life and your mom’s life can never be forgotten. You are part of us.

I will see you in my dreams, and in another life.

I love you.


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